Well, it's been about 4 months since my last entry, which only means good things, really. It's been a whirlwind few months- between work, relationships, life...blah, blah. Work is great- I've stepped into a more prominent role, and it's much more fulfilling. I can't explain it; but between the people I work with, and the projects I work on my days go by faster, yet much more full of fun as well. It's a good setup, and I love every minute of it.
As the time passes, i've come to find out more about what life has to offer, and what i'm getting out of it. I know i've written previously about what makes someone happy, and what I want, and I've been working hard at getting there. Some things have varied; but all in all i'm on my way there. I probably will never be a millionaire, but if I keep it up, i'll be richer in my surroundings. I still think money can't buy happiness- but it sure can be used as a tool to help get you there.
I've met a few more people as a result of a new "theory" i'm working on. I'm trying to be more outgoing and courageous in approaching new people. I put myself in a better position which makes me more open to chatting; resulting in me being much more settled in the art of conversation. I used to stumble; I wreaked of nervousness, which creates an unsettling environment for conversation. THIS is exactly where most people find their "approach anxiety." That awkward moment where you run out of things to say because you lack the social practice. I'm finding it more fulfilling, and easier to build on friendships and potential relationships. I was told this weekend that my overly chatty demeanor isn't my nervousness; i'ts just my nature, I guess. She was right.
You know, one thing with casting your line out in the water is the realization that you may not catch a fish; or you just may break your line. But you'll never catch a fish if you don't cast it out there. I know it's a stupid reference, but hey, i'm an outdoors man. Getting the "let's be friends" line is tough; but it's also a saving grace. You need to look at it as that person is setting you free to find the right one- besides, maybe they'd make you miserable. I remain optimistic, and I find if you can put a positive spin on it all, you'll end up with a good friend. It may take a while, but I try to remain friends or at least cordial with everyone I run into. It's my nature.
I leave you with this thought:
"The relationship between commitment and doubt is by no means an antagonistic one. Commitment is healthiest when it is without doubt, but in spite of doubt."- Rollo May
-R
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