Moving On

The last 8 months have proven to be hilly; ups, downs, and a few flat parts. Ive made mistakes; made some good decisions. I took a new job working in a less-than challenging environment, and have found myself learning a whole new skillset. I've found myself chasing a girl for 6 months that I should have let fix her own tire in the rain, the day we met. Harsh; yeah. True: yes. I also let go of a good friend who moved away; she meant so much to me, more than she'll ever know, but I had to come to terms with my feelings there too. Sometimes people cause you nothing but heartache in your life, and no matter how hard you try to treat them good, they just don't care, or aren't able to reciprocate. Everyday, for me, it becomes easier and easier to not care. I find myself slipping back into that mind set and time frame; but I snap back to reality. I've learned people come and go in your life; some stay for a while and have a lengthy impact, and some are, or should be gone faster than they came in. Life; it is what it is. You can't dwell on the decisions of of others, or judge the choices they make. Plus- it's not in my nature to judge; or at least I try not to. The one thing I did find, is during these times of tumultuous events, you find your true friends. I realize I've had issues with friends, but man, there are a few here in Nashville that really showed me the true meaning of friendship. I find some only put forth effort when they need something or someone; when things aren't going well for them. But when the stars align, or their rocky relationship is back on, or they need nothing- they ignore the people who care. But what people don't know, is those who put up with it, won't forever. My life is moving on; on from the negativity, on from the toxic people in my life, and on to people who respect and care about me. Really, just on with myself. Trying to find a way to get the things i want; the things I need. Right now, I really want a new truck, a street bike, and I need to get a house to rent. I think I've found a roommate, and I'm just looking for the right place. I realize know I'm stronger than people think; better than people think, and more sincere than most deserve. But I'm going to keep doing me; just with a few less numbers in my phone, and a few less headaches.